Tuesday, November 17, 2015
There are days, like today, when the sun is brightly shining, and the sky is bluer than
blue. When the last of the colorful fall leaves, are falling softly from the almost barren
trees, and one can anticipate the cold weather that is right around the corner. But, there
are times when, despite the gorgeous fall day that can been seen through each and every
window, there seems to be a fog over the thoughts of your own heart. That is what it is
like for me during the last two weeks. A fog has settled here. Life as I knew it
is changing. My dear Mother, who most of you know, lives in the lower level of our
home, was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer, and is living out her last days
here in her home. Hospice has become a good friend of our family. They offer so much
comfort and care during her days of sickness and discomfort. She tells me that she is
81 years old, and she is ready to go to heaven. I know that. I find it most comforting to
hear her tell me that, but, even so, it is difficult for me to come to grips with it all. I have
so many questions in regards to what the next few weeks will look like for my family.
The fog is thick at times, preventing us from seeing even the next few steps. Here is
what I read today, written by Sarah Young, in her book, "Jesus Calling";
"As you look at the day before you, you see a twisted, complicated path, with branches
going off in all directions. You wonder how you can possibly find your way through
that maze. Then you remember the One who is with you always, holding you by your
right hand." So comforting and so reassuring this is to me. God sees it all clearly,
and He will lead me through.
So, with that in mind, we go on enjoying our last days with this very special lady, we
call Mother, Grandma, Great-Grandma.
This picture was taken yesterday, with our oldest daughter and her grandma.
As I close this post, I know full well, that many of you have walked this journey before
me, or are walking it now, in your own life. I could learn from you I am sure, since it
is a new path for me.
Thanks so much for your thoughts, your prayers, your emails, and your concern. It sure
eases the burdens and makes the load lighter.